On the pursuit to fulfill my every wish to learn more about myself, you, faith, relationships, and the human journey. With Oprah I will journal my thoughts, take notes, discuss lessons learned and venture into the greatest possibilities of myself.

Lesson #1 The False Power of Ego

Q: Where does your ego get in your way?

A: When I socialize with others, I can’t stop thinking about how people perceive me.

What is ego? When my classmate got offered a nursing job, and I felt like I got robbed of my dignity. I envied her, and that was in response to my ego. Or having this conception that I am never good enough, the root of it all. You see, the ego is very complex, forever full of drama. In this lesson I learned how to be more aware of my ego, and how to rightfully interpret. Becoming aware of your ego allows you to do one thing, understand that you are worthy, that you have a purpose on this planet. That you don’t have to manufacture worth out in the world. You had it all along. All of the worth-seeking, never really being fulfilled, it’s an insecurity in another form. All these material forms brought to bring value to yourself, it’s all false. Being here is all the value that you ever need. I once had the mindset that stillness sleeps but now I know, that stillness indeed speaks.

Love After Love
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the paragraphs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life —Derek Walcott
Other Key Notes:
  • If you catch yourself asking others “What do you think?” Instead of hoping that the right answer will be served to you on a silver platter, do your homework. Ask yourself “What is the true intention, and what are the effects? Will it be done half-heartily, or will I give it my full attention?” If it jeopardizes something in return (i.e. decrease in income), keep in mind the authenticity in you.
  • Criticism is just a spoken observation, you chose the meaning.